Friday, September 29, 2006

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quite a few things happen recently, it makes me really sit back n think am i such an asshole??? alot of u say i am senative but am i really senative to ppl's feeling??? do i act like i care for ppl's feeling but in actual fact i dun??? i start to even doubt myself, doubt my judgement. I feel lost but wat can i do??? do i seem like a heartless asshole??? am i so poor at handling things now??? or in the 1st place i dun even noe how to handle things??? Y has my temper get from bad to worse??? am i going back to the old me?? this qns have been running thought my mind every min n every sec of my life. No doubt i feel lost n weak now but can i show it out?? how will ppl react to it??? since i enter army nothing seems to go the way i wan n i have been keeping to myself more n more often as i dun wish to trouble ppl n i believe everyone has their own pro n they dun need me to add to their burden.

have not been seening much of my parents recently as i woke up they r abt to go play sports or abt to slp liao n i slp when they r awake to go work, it has been like quite some time since we last eat together...

recently saw a few of my BmT frns i saw all of them mature alot n move on very very well with a few planning to get married, in one hand i feel happy but in the other i feel sad hahaha how contridicting can a person be hahahaha....

on mon was my uncle's wedding, i saw my cousins all of them r totally different from the last time i saw them suddenly i feel very infeior n useless even when i tok to them i dun even dare to look at them in the eyes i feel ashame of myself, i c all of them got things to their credit but i have nothing in my name. the whole day i did not tok more than 10 sentences i am scare tat i bring disgrace to my family.

I am really feeling very very very lost. i couldnt shug this feelings off. Haha how useless can a guy get hahahaha....

the neverending dream || 3:45 AM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

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Pls wake up all ur fucking ideas k? i am not ur "personal" driver, i dun c a point y i muz go down to fetch u. Nor do i c a point y muz i bring u go out. I dun mind go out with u all BUT to fetch u anot tat is my choice and to send u home also is my choice. DUN COME KP understand????

I really had euf of all this shit. Dun think i am nice means tat i am a pushover ok???? I am not here to let u all take advantage of n i dun c any point y muz i entertain ur frn whom so ever. ALL THIS R CRAPS.............

the neverending dream || 8:38 AM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

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I juz dicovered tat i has been a long time since i last blogged and i can understand quite a few ppl r thinking "Wat the hell is this guy doing???? MIA so long also no new no nothing then still keep blog for wat" Well my excuse is i forget :p i swear i really forget abt it. Got a few times i wanted to blog but once i reach hm i forget abt it.... I am so so sorry ppl....

Well i believe most of u noe i juz passed my 22nd Bday on 11 of sep which i think is quite sad hahaha coz other than my 21bday the rest of my bdays r nothing worth to mention so i shall spare all of u my grumbles n vulgar words hahaha....

I will continue when i finish watching a show k i now late liao HAHAHAHA

the neverending dream || 9:59 PM

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