Monday, October 30, 2006

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i take back wat i say abt the tag board hahaha finally it is fix LoL

the neverending dream || 2:47 AM

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It is late in the night or shld i say early in the morning n i am sit here alone drinking to world peace hahaha. Has been drinking alot since ken's bday, i dunnoe y. i guess it is juz the need n the feeling of numbness tat makes me enjoy ba. Recently face quite alot of issues hahaha things r getting out of my hands n i really dunnoe how to handle them. Now i feeling like a clown really. i mean correct i have been a clown in most of u ppl's mind n i am a disgrace to u all. Scold vulgaries, tok very loud, keep looking at gals, act like a fucking idiot dick head. Makes going out with u all a disgrace but u all got no choice since i am a frn to u all. I totally understand this shit truely. u guys has been a great frn be not saying tat having a frn like me is a disgrace. enduring all my shit things n of coz my fucking temper how could i miss tat big piece of shit out?? hahaha u all have been very nice really, by not saying it out loud tat i am a dick head. sometime i really think y do u all still willing to be with a frn whom is like a dick head, who looks ugly n have totally no idea of how he or she looks?? the part which i held proudly loyalty n problem listener is now starting to fly all over the place. Every day i am like a clown whom wear mask n walk ard. I hate myself really I FUCKING HATE MYSELF. but wat can i do? commit sucide? or bring saddess to everyone? bring trouble to my frns?? Oh wait, y would u all feel trouble n sad over a dick head like me?? hahaha correct i am juz a loser with a capital L on my forehead hahahaha...

I dun noe wat the fuck is wrong with my fucking tagboard i try to change also cannot how????

Am i really happy??? Am i who i use to be?? i am losing it soon hahahaha..........

the neverending dream || 2:29 AM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

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I have no idea wat is wrong with my tag board can anyone drop me a msg or call to tell me wat to do??? i am at a lost right now...

the neverending dream || 1:39 AM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

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I was reading throught one of my onli two gd female frn's blog lets name her "A", everytime i c her blog i always felt amazed by the things she say, they always makes me think abt alot of things n if u noe wat she has gone through u will feel amazed too. How many ppl can while studying oversea they still make a lot of impact in singapore??? I no doubt noe her for quite short time compare to the other gal n they r like best pals but the way she c things is very special. She is very easily happy n u can make her luff by luffing onli (maybe tats me onli)

U muz be thinking y suddenly i mention her right?? well is because i nv c her for quite some time the last time was at "B"'s 21st bday party n we did not tok much also. (B is the other of my onli two gd female frn but i think they noe who they r. dun u gals??? *wink*) i discover tat as time goes by i start to appear lesser n lesser in their life or i shld say nv appear in most of my frn's life. am i really tat busy??? am i start to turn cold?? i feel like giving them a call but i juz cannot seem to bother them as now everyone has their own commitment n i have mine.

i have no idea wat i am writing now n i have no single idea y am i writing this entry also. But i noe one thing, i will nv forget any of u like mel,ys,yong,ken,kok,hai,peipei,apple,zhehan,gui,A,B,cute cute n alot more. Even now i did not contect u all n i being forgotten by u all i still miss u all n love u all as wat i did last time. Hope all of u take gd care of urself... N i really miss u guys alot alot alot....

the neverending dream || 2:49 AM

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