Wednesday, November 22, 2006

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I find it funny really, this few days i dunnoe y ppl ard me r all getting more n more easily pissed off n very easily offended without asking/thinking y things turn out like tat. N i find it funny is tat i dun throw my temper ard as they throw their temper. Which last time i will use to do de. I will feel pissed off if i am not the one whom cause ur anger n u vent my anger on me but now i am damn realc. I can still joke abt it. Haiyo all of u dun be so short temper liao k??? this world is a nice n wonderful place (in my dream but alas u all muz think in this way!!!!!)

How big effect can a person be on another?? it is very very big coz after wat ken tok to me abt it i starts to change n luff at things. But when i am doing this i felt tat i am like stick a Mask on me for 16/7 u muz be thinking y isn't it 24/7 right? is coz when i am slping tat is who i am. How many ppl have actually saw the true of me?? One of my classmate says tat i am a strange guy with alot of mask no one can totally understand me. I agree with wat she say but i ask her y does she think of me in this way she say tat in class i am a strong n demanding person whom dun accept failure n a very strict person with a loud voice but when i am outside sch i am a very caring n helpful person whom try to understand ppl n tries to help them solve their problems. Once she stop toking i keep luffing, i did not even notice this thing until she tell me. Then it starts to make me think i hate ppl whom wear mask but y nowadays i am turning into one person whom i hate so much??? i really dunnoe. Is the situtation tat makes ppl change or becoz the person himself wans to change??? This change is to make me feel safe or wat? Am i tat scare to be hurt so i start hurting ppl 1st?? Wat i really wans? i also felt tat once i am back in sch to study after such long time i really change alot alot. Sometime when i am in the toilet n i c my own reflections i even dun recongize it n think who is the fat fucking bastard?? who am i today?? Another of my classmate says tat i am split personality. I also have such feelings hahaha.....

Shuxian: dun keep things to urself k? anything muz speak out coz we r not u so we dunnoe wat u r thinking n how u feel de. Got issues say out at least tell yu san or jing mei or ming xue they can help u share de k? (P.S. dun scold idiot k? anything tell me directly :P)

Ryosuke:nowadays u did a great job by now showing ur temper easily this is gd keep up the gd work.

Edmond: Hahaha relax boi relax hahahaha

Leo: y so moody nowadays?? did not have a chance to speak to u recently coz of my things but dun worry will speak to u after this week de k?

Ken: buck up bro we can do it de. Nothing is too tougt for any of us.

A: i guess u r still angry with me but trust me when i say this i really dun wan things to turn out like this de i swear

B:Thanx for being there i really apperciate wat u have done all this yrs really thanx...

Lun; i noe u got read my blog de i juz wan to tell u tat i am real proud of u keep up the gd work...

the neverending dream || 11:38 PM

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

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I guess u really will understand how a man feel when u actually go thought the same shit as he did. this type of feelings r unbelievable de, althought till now i haven forget the feeling n the guilt of doing such stuff but i still tremble n fear... yet u have to show a strong side juz in case ppl r looking at u n luffing behind u...

I really dunnoe wat is getting into my recently i have no interest in anything at all. Work i face problem, frns i face problems, sch i face problem, family got issues hahaha sometime i really wonder tat i am putting on a strong front is for the sake of myself or for the sake of those ard me?? I am trying to attract their attentions or i am trying to prove tat i am strong euf??

the neverending dream || 8:39 AM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

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To say tat i was stun is a under statement seriously, when i heard the new i was shock at 1st i thought she was telling me a joke i swear. Then i hear her voice she was damn serious. I feel sorry for u my frn i noe u dun look at my blog de but right here i wan to tell u pls be strong for urself. Take ur time, the rest of the issues i will help u settle de. K? dun think too much.....

the neverending dream || 2:25 AM

Thursday, November 16, 2006

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Did i did something wrong??? Y is it like everything is going against me??? Y u all like to let me noe things last min??

I noe i am a failure in many thing but r u now telling me tat i actually fail in the last thing tat i hold proud?? i am losing it soon trust me.......

the neverending dream || 11:39 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

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Currently i am still at hm due to the fact tat i overslp n today we got quite inmportant guest over at our lecture i decided to skip lectures. I feel tat i am getting more n more lazy nowadays n keep finding reasons not to go sch hahaha....

I went motorshow yesterday n i was quite surprise by the things there n of coz the gals over there. Which motorshow is consider complete without those lovely gals. The cars r really great man. I even manage to saw my all time fav n most loveable LOTUS hahahaha. I was surprised to c the car at the event coz b4 we went in we took a map n i try looking if lotus has a show case but they dun have was abit sad but no choice. so u r imagine my surprise when ryan tell me tat he saw Lotus in front of us. hahaha she is such a beauty.......

I was eating dinner with two of my frns one of the day last week, coz of the past few days he like quite sad so i ask him wat happen u guess wat he reply me? "Hello, i now eating so cannot tok" Can u imagine how i feel?? i was half pissed off n half stun so i reply him "can no pro, from todays onwards when u r eating u better dun even open ur mouth" y do i have such frns???

the neverending dream || 8:12 AM

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