Friday, February 15, 2008

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V-day how nice haha.... As per tradition, i nv celebrate Vday again hahaha. I spend my time working coz since most of the things are expensive and u see tons n tons of couple holding hand and lovely lovely it is totally disgusting. Yup i am toking abt u Mr Shaun Yeo or Lai lolz..... It juz disgusted me coz u got 364days in a yr to show ur "undying love" so y muz u support the commericalized day? flowers food basically every thing increases damn. it is juz ugly and disgusting and unhealthy to ur body.

When i reach my work place or shld i say i started work tat time suddenly got this thought into my mind. Wat if she also make a reservation at my place? how shld i react? wat shld i say? My whole knee went jelly. My heart stop and my mind went blank. My body started to shiver and suddenly i have no mood to work at all. Tears starting to form abit here n there but as usual it onli form like 2sec? then my colleges started to toking to mi n joke abit here n there, i started to feel abit back to normal. But the feeling of seeing her is still there. Now i can feel my heart pumping very fast as i am typing this entry right now. Shld i feel lucky or shld i feel unlucky tat i did not saw her at all.

4yrs liao and my heart still ache for her. haiz.... another slpless night for me again i guess..................................................................................

the neverending dream || 2:28 AM

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

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I woke up trembling with fear again. I dream tat she finally decided to be truthful and all her words r like dagger stabbing deeper n deeper each time. The look in her eyes is scary the words r like dip in venom. how long more must i live in a life like this? Sleepless night n day, i am scare of night now very scare....

the neverending dream || 9:14 AM

Monday, February 04, 2008

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I noe i have been a bastard all this yrs... How i wish i am able to break down in front of ppl. How i

wish i am able to call out to ppl for help. All this yrs i have been hiding behind a tough n idiotic

front. I noe i make all of u whom noe mi disgraceful due to my rudeness, my vulgar way of life,

my bochap attitude to most of the things. But have u wonder after all this yrs, Y do i still call u

my frns?? I nv believe in frns in the 1st place. I have gone through alot of shit with most of u. Be

it during Sec life , be it Sc, Be it Yunnan, be it forum life, hell be it anything u can think of. Have i

nv shown, with all due respect, all of u loyalty, helping hand and my god damn shoulder? Have i

ever say no to any of u? Did i do things to harm any of u? U were parts of my life and i hope most

of u will be part of my bloody life twenty yrs down the road.

But can i ask u all a simple qn?? Where r u when i need u most? Wat have u ever done for mi?? :)

But i do apreciate most of u being able to take my temper and all those shit. I were like to say thanx to all of u whom is a part of mine life right now. Thank u.

the neverending dream || 9:28 PM

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