Wednesday, March 14, 2007

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Well juz finish with 2/3 of my exam now left 1/3 more to go, now trying to get myself relax n had some fun b4 hitting the books again.... had been sick for quite some time n someone is asking me to go c doc but i refused anyway thanx for the concern u show to me....

Had a tok with B juz now, she will kinda of shock i guess when i told her something. I nv thought i will go till tat level too, but being a nice person ( i think act onli, hahahahaha) she gave me solution n tell me wat she is thinking which is very close to wat i am thinking also.... Can i blame anyone? I guess not but true euf being with them is something stressful for me althought they r very nice to me n tell me not to be bother abt those stuff n they really care abt me but some stuff u can nv stop de.... True euf i have seen them down b4, so?? deep down i still think tat they r way way way better n stronger than me.... Pls dun have a misconcerption of i am trying to blame them I AM NOT OK?? i really love them n more or less treating them like my family... the key word here is TIME again i guess.....

Juz now i was flipping through my frnster, i suddenly have this thinking of giving ppl testi so i look under my frn list n guess wat, out of the 200++ ppl till now i onli contact like wat 20? ppl onli which is like 10% of the whole thing hahaha n wat is the best part got some i have no idea who tat person is hahaha funny?? when u need ppl tat time where r the 200++ ppl? where have they gone?? do they really care abt u?? i dunnoe...

anyway i am super lost now......

the neverending dream || 7:04 PM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

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Late in the night when everyone is slping n here i am typing blog hahaha how weird right?? Anyway things r starting to turn better now hopefully n my exams r real near now n i am having a super hard time trying to remember how to do my BCM which is like English damn i juz hate english. Recently i found myself distaning from ppl ard me as in everyone i start losing faith n aimlessly doing stuff i dunnoe wat is wrong. I even dunnoe how shld i do n wat is wrong in my life....

Headaches r coming back very oftenly nowadays n my back r not helping at all totally.... When i am at hm i can suddenly feel tat i have no feeling for the lower half of my body then suddenly the pain one shot come which can cause me to lie on the floor with tears in my eyes....... how wonderful right?? this young n have so much pro with health haha how nice.....

Have i made a mistake??? Y am i having second thoughts now?? Do we really dun suit each other??? Y when i am imaging our future i can c it yet now i cannot??

the neverending dream || 1:28 AM

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